Intro/Bridge
I’ve got a doubting mind to convince
I’ve got a childhood to forget
I’m Too scared to admit,
that I need to prove (to me) I’m one of you
v1
First steps in, so confident
At least in my mind, that’s what your thinking
Affirm me, that I fit in,
that I belong, just like them
Its high time, to enjoy my right, what I’ve lived forcibly without my whole life
These things I’ve been told I should fight, gonna try the darkness as my light
Moderation, I was forced to use, now I get to choose, can’t look back now I got to move
Too scared to admit, that I need to prove, to me and we I’m one of you
V2
Here comes the guilt,
The old conscience, how many more times
do I have to resist
No longer the boy,
I’ll prove it to you, but moreso myself,
oh God I need to
Call it escape, you can call it my fear, I call it nothing because I choose not to hear
In chemical cocktail, the voice disappears, drunken syndicate’s groupthink so clear
The path out of hell, so long they say, but its taking no time to go the other way
Virigin to this state, hope it shall make, the boy sized holes in this man go away
Chorus
I’ve got an itch on the back of my neck,
but this feeling fixes
oh god I know/hope that it will
hide from all who once knew my name
Oh the crave, so depraved, self converted to prey
Outro
The Sobering sun of the morning tells, the passion of night neither silence nor quells
Deformation of indulgence nailed, a proclamation of guilty expelled
Oscillations, vibrating my soul, prove to me now what I wanted to know
Edging and eding until I indulge, and painting the world now dark as my own
songs of the night are ending so soon, ca tharsis they brought now leaves a vacuum,
conscience once buried will now be exhumed, no comfort to feel in my hedonist tomb
Brief the escape of forbidden taboo, ability warranting zero pursuit
Lingering still every question of youth, I know little more than I’m not one you